Head in the Clouds

You are going to come across people in this life who do not believe in you. And there are going to be many of them.

But they are not you, and you do not have to believe them. Lofty ambitions are what we should all be dreaming. Our aspirations will turn into actuality if we put in the time and dedication and never lose sense of that feeling that our heads are up somewhere in the clouds. Yet, to achieve our dreams and our desired future, we must accept our nightmares, our past and its inevitable failures.

Someone recently told me, “I question people who bring their past with them into the present.” Well, I question this statement. All of the fleeting moments, the questions, the mistakes, the triumphs, the tears, the thoughts, the actions, the pile-ups of seemingly insignificant seconds, affect everything that we do now in our present lives. Our past shapes us. Just as our present will soon be our past and these moments, too, will carry weight with us into the ever ominous future. Through it all, our selves will continue to evolve.

You are never going to be perfect, and perfect is not something to strive to be, because the quirkiness is a huge factor in our beauty. You are going to make mistakes. You are going to, at one time, say the wrong thing to the wrong person, just as you once remember someone, at one time, saying and doing the wrong thing to you. You are going to learn from every pitfall and every pitfall is going to feel smaller in significance when you move onto life’s next learning experience and attempt to tackle the next hurdle. You are going to question–question both other people’s motives and your own, because every day is going to bring a new message, a new conquest, to the forefront of your mind, and all at once, those motives and everything you thought you had figured out the day before, everything you thought you knew, will seem to at once evaporate and evolve as it morphs into something else entirely. Something new worth chasing. Worth pursuing.

Live for now. Lead in love. Stop running. Your past does not define you, but it is a part of you, and you should never be scared of it. It’s what got you here, and it’s what will help get you to tomorrow. And here is pretty great. And tomorrow may be even better. And the future is not so ominous when you realize the foundation has been there all along.

“You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you’ll escape one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.” ~ John Green


Fleeting Moments and Forever Memories

F. Scott Fitzgerald once wrote, “Riches have never fascinated me, unless combined with the greatest charm of distinction.” F. Scott Fitzgerald knew a thing or two about the true meaning of Christmas. The presents under the tree never hold my fascination for very long; but, the love of my family and friends everlastingly warm my heart. And always has it been that way.

Looking back to when I was a little girl, the memories that continue to captivate my imagination are those wrapped within the little moments. Baking and decorating cookies with my mom, giggling as my dad and brother struggle with the chainsaw to cut down the most massive Christmas tree we could find, reading stories with my grandparents on Christmas Eve and raising our eyebrows in mock fear of the Grinch and his menacing ways, strolling through the dead avenues of our quiet town in the late evening hours with our heads spinning in awe of neighbors’ over-the-top light displays and decorations, cuddling cozily by the fire in anticipation of the day to come.

I look back, and while memories of opening Santa’s presents and the joy and excitement of Christmas morning do cross my mind, they never take center stage. As I grow older, I find myself missing these little moments and taking the time and care to make sure that I continue to recreate newer versions of these fond reminiscences with every passing year as my life continues to develop.

This Christmas and Eve, stop and take a look around you. Revel in the joy, the glistening of smiles, the rosiness of cheeks, and the little moments. Because as F. Scott Fitzgerald once wrote, “It is sadder to find the past again and find it inadequate to the present than it is to have it elude you and remain forever a harmonious conception of memory.”

Create lasting memories this holiday season and every holiday season. Wishing you all a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!